confidence.

i used to blog all the time.
about everything. i'm not sure why i stopped.
like i posted in my old blog.. maybe its because i do so much writing for school that i don't want to write for pleasure anymore. but i loved it then, and i still do love it now, so im going to start again.
right now it's 1:40 a.m. and i can't sleep. 1) because i had a fabulous nap earlier this afternoon, and 2) because i am listening to the glee soundtrack on repeat.
those kids make me feel so untalented. i wish i could sing like that.
then i look at some of the work that i do and i wonder if i give myself enough credit.
i'm a damn good writer. i can take a topic and begin to turn it into a significant and interesting news story within a few short minutes (in most cases). i really hate when i discredit myself, though i don't want to sound cocky. it just sucks when other people take credit for things you had a bigger part in. or when you're overlooked because someone has done something maybe not quite as good in your eyes, but just a little better than you in someone else's eyes.
either way..i'm great.
i realize this sounds terribly arrogant, but telling myself how fantastic i am every day really makes a difference in how i see the world and how i come across to other people. i'm very loud and outgoing, but i have incredibly low self-esteem sometimes. i cover it up with sarcasm; you've probably noticed on occasion. but i've decided that in a competitive world, it's not a bad thing to give yourself an extra confidence booster every now and then.
so i'm great. maybe you are too.. but i'm probably better. social darwinism, folks...survival of the fittest.

don't stop believin'.